My musings on ambien

Scared to be alone Scared to admit wekaness Scared to accept emotionally Scared to give emotionally Scared to be in love with someone who is not Scared to open my heart to anyone; friends, family, even myself I dont want to be hurt anymore, or to hurt Love= peace, joy, acceptance, freedom, happiness, sadness, pleasure, pain, comfort, anxiety. I am tired of feeling this trapped. I release all my fears, guilts and doubts to God. I ask him to show me the way to my happiness. This I wrote the other day when I was hopped up on ambien, and do not really remember writting it all down, however, after reading it awake, I realize that I do have alot more to discuss and deal with than I had previously thought I did. So, there is a little into the deepest parts of my Psyche.